Still Standing

By: Dee Parker

Phot Credit: Tani Olorunyomi 

It's strange, the way I feel,
as if my heart has softened,
as if compassion has found a home in me

Maybe it’s age.
Maybe it’s wisdom.
Or maybe it’s fear,
fear of failing,
Fear of pride building walls
where bridges should be.

I know we all stumble,
but I carry a name,
And failure does not live here.
The storms I’ve weathered
were not curses,
they were lessons,
Life lessons to strengthen my soul.

There were moments
I wanted to surrender,
But I didn’t.
Even when it felt like I was standing alone, deep down I knew I wasn't, I'm never alone, I know my ancestors walk with me, so I'm alright.

I know what it is
to be torn down,
to start from nothing,
to be held in love,
and to pour love out freely.

I’ve given goodness
and been bruised by betrayal.
Yet I rise,
smiling through the pain,
walking forward
with unbroken steps.

For those who left me behind thank you, lesson learned, I know where I stand with you. 
For those who stood quietly at my side,
Thank you.

I want what all hearts seek,
happiness, freedom, and a life full of love without the sacrifice of pain, but I’ve taken pain
and forged it into purpose.
Isolation became elevation.

At times, it feels
like breathing underwater, but still,
I reach for air.

I slip my feelings into my pocket,
lift my head high,
and claim my ground.

I am not broken.
I am not defeated.

I am here.
I am rising.
I am still and forever standing.

It's all small steps to a giant!
( Random Thoughts) D~Parker 9.4.2025